Dear friends, Mera naam Love hai aur mai ab 21 year ka hu. dosto mujhe aapki help ki jarurat hai pls meri help kare ki mai apna future aur pariwar ko samhal saku. mai pichle 3-4 mahino se tanav me chal raha hu. maine isse bahar aane ki har kosis ki par sab bekaar,

pata nhi kyo mai ushey bhul nhi paa rha hu. jab ki na to wo mujhe dekna pasand karti hai aur na to baat karti hai. phir bhi mai har din uska intzaar karta hu ki sayad wo kuch mujhse bol de ya phir wo mere paas laut aaye yahi karte karte 4 month hone ko hai aur din raat mai ushi ke baare me sochta rehta hu aur rota rehta hu.

meri love story ki suruwat kuch ish tarah se hui. Aaj se karib 4-5 saal pahle ki baat hai. jab mai delhi aaya, mere room ke bagal me hi wo rehti hai jiska naam neelam hai, wo dikhne me khubsurat thi aur frank behave ki thi. mai ushe bachpan se hi like karta tha par jab mai delhi chorkar apne gaao gya tha ushi time hum kafhi chote they.

par jab mai kai saalo ke baad wapas lauta to wo ab 17 saal ki ho gai thi, mai ushe like karta tha par mujhe pata chala ki wo apni hi gali ke vishal naam ke ladke se uski friendship hai, to maine apne kadam rok liye. maine na to usse najare milayi aur na hi kabhi baat karne ki kosis ki.

mai apne job aur future ke baare me hi socha karta tha. ish bich me mera na to koi dost tha na hi maine kisi ladki se friendship karne ki kosis ki thi. aise hi 2 saal bit gaye, ishi bich neelam ka bhai laptop kharid kar laya par wo ushey use karna nhi jante they.

mujhe computer ki jankari thi to wo mujhe bulakar le gaye aur ish tarah se hamari baatchit suru hui, aur dheere dheere wo meri taraf aakrsit hone lagi. par mai darta tha ki kahi ye bhi baki ladkiyo ki tarah cheat na kare mujhe ladkiyo se nafarat si ho gai thi. 2-3 mahine gujar jane ke baad wo mujh se kaphi frank ho gai aur khulkar baate karne lagi aur

ek din ushne mujhe bola ki mai aapko like karti hu aur aapke sath friendship karna chahti hu. maine mana kar diya. to wo thora upset ho gai phir wo mujhe kehne lagi ki tum ghamndi ho aur na jane apne aapko kya samjhte ho. phir wo udaas si rehne lagi aur baat bhi nhi karti thi.

maine kha ki tum pachtaogi. to ushne kha ki mai nhi tum pachtaogey. phir ek do din baad maine bhi uski friendship accept kar li aur maine ushey promis liya ki tum kisi bhi haalat me mera sath nhi chodogi. to ushne mujhse waade kiye aur kha kuch bhi ho jaye mai tumhara sath kabhi nhi chorongi.

Mai khus tha ki mujhe ek dost mil gai hai jisase mai apne dil ki baate share kar sakta hu, bich me mere aas paas wale dosto ne mujhe ushsey dur rehne ke liye bola aur kha ki tu sidha shada aur accha ladka hai ishliye dost hone ki wajah se teri bhalai ke liye tujhe keh rhe hai ki tu ushasey dur reh.

kyo ki wo bharose ke layak ladki nhi hai. wo bas time paas karti hai aur apna kaam nikaalti hai. un logo ne uske affair ke baare me bataya ki usane kai ladko ko dhokha diya hai aur ek din tujhe bhi dhoka degi par na jane kyo mera dil keh rha tha ki nhi wo mere saath aisa kuch bhi nhi karegi aur

sayad log mera aur uska aapas me baat karna unhey bura lagta ho ishliye kahaniya bana rhe hai. mai uske baare me kuch bhi galat nhi sun sakta tha. ishliye mai uski khatir apne sabhi dosto se dheere dheere dur hone laga aur apna sab kuch ushey maan liya. Dheere dheere humari dosti pyar me badal gai.

valentine day ke din ushne mujhe gift diye aur i love you bola. maine bhi apane dil ki baat bol di aur kha ki mai to tumhe bachapan se hi pyar karta hu aur karta rahunga. uske baad 1-2 hapte to sab thik tha par na jane kyo ek din uski call aayi aur boli ki hume yahi par ruk jana chahiye.

humare baare me sabhi log jaan gaye hai aur tumhari wajah se mera future kharab ho jayega. meri padhai chut jayegi, meri to jaise jubaan hi band ho gai. maine kuch nhi bola aur meri aankho me anayas hi aansu nikal pade maine socha agar meri wajah se uska future kharab ho rha hai to mai ab ushey baat nhi karunga.

aur jab mai room par gya to khud ko room ke andar kaid kar liya. mai 3-4 dino tak bahut kam bahar niklata tha. wo paresaan hone lagi. phir mujhse dekha nhi gya to mai baahar aa gya. phir sab normal ho gya. par pta nhi kyo mujhe ush par sak hone laga tha.
kyo ki suruwaat me wo roj phone aur message karti thi. par 2-3 mahino me hi call aani kam ho gayi aur hud to tab ho gai jab uska phone 4-4 dino tak nhi aata tha aur jab mai call karta to bolti thi ki dost se baat kar rhi thi. kabhi kabhi to mera number recive nhi karti aur phone off kar deti. esh tarah se humare bich me duriya aane lagi.

humare bhich me tu-tu mai mai hoti. par mai ushe mana leta tha aur wo maan jati thi. lekin hud to tab ho gai jab mere papa aur uske bhai ke bhich me kuch kha suni ho gai, ushi din se wo mujhse najare pherane lagi. mai paresaan ho gya aur kai baar kosis ki ushsey baat karne ki par wo raazi nhi hui, mai dipretion me rehne laga.

maine uski saheli se request kiya ki ek baar mujhse baat kar le. par nhi ki. maine call kiye par reply nhi kiya aur jab mujhse rha nhi gya to maine direct uske paas jakar bol diya ki tum mujse baat kyo nhi kar rhi ho. aakhir wajah kya hai. to ushney bola ki tum pagal ho kya.

kyo piche lage ho. ye sunte hi mere pairo tale jameen kisak gai, meri aankho me aansu aa gaye. mai bhagta huya ekant me gaya aur khub roya aur ek baat dimaag me garh kar gai ki aakhir wajah kya hai mujhe chorne ka aur maine kya galti kar di jo ab wo mujse nafrat karne lagi hai.

Din raat mujhe uski yaade paresaan karari hai aur uske sath bite huye palo ko yaad karke mai rota rehta hu, mujhe na jaane kyo aas paas aur garhwalo se ristedaaro se bhi mai dur ho gya hu. bas akele rehta hu aur kisi se baat nhi karta. mai ye jaanta hu ki jo mai kar rha hu wo galat hai.

par mai khud ko rok nhi paa rha hu. Meri aankhey bahr jaati hai. jab yaad aate hai uske kiye huye waade, kabhi akele na chor dene ki kasam aur mere liye wo kitna paresaan rehti thi. kya wo sab jhuth tha, suru suru me wo mere liye uska utawlapan jab tak wo mujhe dekh nhi leti thi wo bechain rehti thi.

raat ko sone se pahle wo mujhe dekhti. jab tak mai uhey na dekh lu aur wo mujhe tab tak hum kabhi nhi soye they. par aaj wo itna change ho gai hai ki muje dekhte hi wo room ke andar chali jaati hai aur baahar nhi aati. wo logo ke saath khus rehti par jaise hi mujhe dekhti hai.

uski muskaan khatam ho jaati hai. uska behave dekh kar mai ab uske saamane kam hi jaata hu par mai usko dekhe bina khud ko rok nhi paata hu logo ne kha ki agar ushe tujhse pyar hai to tu usasey dur ho jaa wo khud chalkar aayegi. par mai khud ko usse ek se do din bhi dur nhi kar paata aur kisi na kisi bahane se ushki ek jhalak paane ke liye mai baahar ganto baitha rehta hu.

dheere dheere wo ab bilkul change ho gai hai aur mai bhi andar se bilkul tut chuka hu aur mai uska intzaar karte karte thak gya hu. ab mai kya karu ab mujhe na to pahle jaise dimaag me vichaar aate hai ki life me kuch karu aur na to padhai me maan lagta hai aur na hi jab me bas din aate hai jate hai kuch pta hi nhi chalta.

kyo ki 24 houre ushi ki baate andar hi andar khate pite kaam karte bas wo hi yaad aati rehti hai. mai pahle ki tarah se chalna chahta hu kuch karna chahta hu, mai jeena chahta hu aur kaamyaabi haasil karna chahta hu, mai kosis karta hu par jaise hi uske khyal dimaag me aate hai mai tut ke bhikhar jaata hu aur phir se niche gir jaata hu.

mai kya karu pls help me... mujhe raasta dikhaye mai aapka zindgi bhar aap logo ka aehsaanmand rahunga...

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